When I look into the mirror, I see a guinea pig!...LOLJ
I do not want to sound like a patient anymore but honestly, there are certain medicines that are tested on animals and when I am watching myself into the mirror, I see a new kind of animal who looks like me but all kind of drugs have been experimented on her.
Today, it was such a difficult day. It has been 5 days I have been put on 1000mg antibiotics that have broken my body and mind. Still I have two more days to go and the worst part is there are no results. Strange!
I eat them and sleep as my stomach threw all kinds of acids from one wall to another as I suffer from GERD. One medicine reacts so I am given another to suppress the side effects and then some other to support it. One medicine to another and then to another.
Two months have almost passed and I am living with an infection. Different kind of tests have been done and I am still nowhereJ
Either medicines are not working or I am not responding to them. If it does not get better God knows what test would be performed on me now....guinea pig!
I am not able to eat or drink anything and I am really wishing, I get better soon as Diwali comes once a year. Last year my Diwali was messed up as I was operated. It is true that small things make us happy when we cannot wish for bigger ones. I do not think I am asking too much from God!
I cannot stop laughing at myself. I have got deep dark circles around my eyes in last 4 days as if I am a drug addictJ. Guinea pig would be in a better position than meJ
But yes there is one thing that helps me to bear the pain. I am putting the link to the youtube video. It might be helpful to someone like me.
I do not understand anything other than ‘Govinda Hari Govinda’ but the vibrations that I feel while listening helps me. I am not sure what language is this but I am very glad to the person who has uploaded this video.
I will sleep now!
Govinda Hari Govinda
