What am I reading?

I just started reading a new book - 'You will See It When You Believe It' written by Dr. Wayne W. Dyer.

The introduction page made me feel to pick this book and read it further. I cannot write more about this book as I am yet to read it but I have read other books by the same author, and somehow I enjoy reading his books.

Happy Sunday:)

28 is a Good Number :)

Readers -

I have written 28 write-ups for Friday Gurgaon and the number makes me happy. I am thankful to my readers for reading my articles, and leaving their reviews/comments. I got few mails as feedback from the senior editor with a positive feedback. I also received emails from Friday Gurgaon with the feedback left by different readers. Thanks to all for reading me so far. To read my published write-ups, click the link -

http://www.fridaygurgaon.com/search.aspx?freetxt=archana%20kapoor%20nagpal

:)..............

My Latest Write-up in FG

Here is the link to my latest write-up in Friday Gurgaon. A story very close to my heart.

Hope my readers will enjoy reading my latest write- up.

http://www.fridaygurgaon.com/news/3566-The-Piggy-Bank.html

:)

Nothing Like Her !

I feel what I feel, I can only talk to my mother. The only person who will never judge me or hate me for being me. The darkness around me can only be felt by my mother. I do not need God because I have my mother. At this moment, I just want to be with my mom...:)....Omg, I do not believe, I am crying.....but I am sure my readers, we will agree, nothing like a mother in our life. A song that really makes me cry, and reminds me of some moments of my life with my mother.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rIBrk5VW7Q0

I hope for a better tomorrow. Till the time, my mother believes, I am right, I do not worry about the world anymore!

:)

Be with yourself for a day!

Yesterday, I watched all the series of Tom and Jerry. I have a great plan for today too. Yesterday, I also listened to some of my favourite songs but today I will read my new book gifted to myself. I am also reading Bhagvad Gita daily. 

I have send some clothes and medicines for the Himalayan Tragedy. Though it might not make much of a difference. I plan to stay away from my laptop and iPad for the remaining week. I just want to spend time with myself and closer to nature. I just got a canvas and have started painting it too. Again these colours make me feel so good.

I look forward to meeting my family, if I am allowed to travel. I have so many plans for my trip. This day is just my day for myself. I want to spend it with myself only!

I have downloaded two movies and will watch them back to back after my workouts. Just spend a day with yourself. It makes you happy much more than being a part of the crowd all the time. It is good to be bored as written in one of the chapters in the book - Don't Sweat The Small Stuff by Richard Carlson.

:)

Can we restart in life?

I am glad like our computers, we do have something like a restart in our lives. But when the word restart is used for starting from the scratch, you feel hurt. In 2006, I started my journey of medical problem, almost gave two years, finally resigned in 2008 but recovered by mid of 2008.

My father called an hour back and asked me a question, "Why do I feel you are hiding something from me? You talk about it to your mother but not to me. You feel, I might not understand or feel bad about it."

I smiled over the call and just wiped my tears. You know what, "I am fine."

It gives happiness when a lie can make your loved ones relaxed and happy. As such also people cannot help me at this point but being happy will at least give them a contentment. I am 5 weeks away from recovery but as per my doc, it will take almost a year to have a normal life. I resumed my activities from Monday. I started gymming from today. But everything is not the same or maybe will never be the same.

But I have learned a fact - smile in pain is all time better than crying with pain. It makes a lot of difference. I might not be the same person or daughter or wife for my family but I will try as I have restarted from where I was in 2006. It hurts, indeed it hurts very badly, I am back to 0. But I will still not give up as if I give up, I die before I actually die. I swim 2500 m daily, walk 6 km at a very slow speed, and light workouts. But yes the pain travels with me all that while. Still I do not stop myself.

Though things will never be the same again for me but a hope of being fine lives within me, each day.

At times, I get up at 2 am and cry with pain. But then sleep with my tired eyes. This is a sign that there is a hope to fight and to recover.

You only lose when you give up in life. You fail when you stop trying in life. The easiest thing to live is Just Live.....to Live!

In the famous words of SRK, we fall in love only once, we get married only once and we live only once.

In nutshell, it is only once as we get only one life....

Could we speak the language of dolphins?

The flutter and flips of a dolphin so much resemble our lives. I started my day on a note to just walk. When I should walk, my focus must be on my life not on anything else whether my past or my future to come. Just to flutter and flip like a dolphin. As I cannot change things but I HAVE to CHANGE myself. I started reading Gita gifted to me by my friend. I cooked lunch for my husband and I am not upset about anything anymore. I could actually gather energy to write and it is all because I have accepted a fact - acceptance is a key to happiness and expectation is a key to a miserable life. 

After three weeks, I watched a video on Ted.com and I am sharing with my readers. With time, it is very important to distance yourself from the crowd albeit you might find yourself lonely but it is good to be with yourself for some time. Watch this video and if you are a sea lover, you will really enjoy it.

http://www.ted.com/talks/denise_herzing_could_we_speak_the_language_of_dolphins.html

Thanks Mbono!

My author friend is returning to Zambia. I really wanted to visit her in Mumbai but I am not suppose to travel for next 5 weeks(:. We could not meet but spoke once in a while. I do not make ISD calls but I promised to Mbono to call her once in a month. At times, I am thankful to Fb and JFE group that has brought authors from different countries together. I am happy she is leaving my country happily as her husband's surgery is successful. 

I send her a small gift and I was surprised with her parcel of gifts sent to me. 

It is not about gifts but the understanding and love between us. I believe if we fail in one relation, we might not fail in another:)

I do not miss people as I have changed after falling down so many times, but I am feeling sad as Mbono is leaving. I will miss her...(:...I know, I will never travel to Zambia so I wish she visits India for a good reason.

My First Art Class -:)

After eight months since I am back from Gurgaon, I attended my first art class in Bangalore. My teacher is from Tanjore. I plan to learn oil painting followed by Impasto. 

I want to start Tanjore but looking at my back condition, I have to wait for another 2 months. Tanjore needs either to sit on the ground or lot of bending job unlike oil painting or impasto. 

My husband gifted me two big canvas (s), and the entire kit of paints, and the palette knives. I am making one canvas with my teacher and the other on my own. I am reading art work of Jaganath Paul and making one of his painting (I mean reproducing it with my thought process - combination of acrylic, oil and charcoal). When I look at this painting of Jaganath Paul, I think of two traits of my nature - goodness can win over evil and at times we sacrifice for other's happiness. I am giving 100% to this painting as it means a lot to me if I can make it the way I want....

:)

Small...Smaller and Smallest................:)

Mausam Mausam Yeh Lovely Mausam...........I am living a life of typical housewife.

I am not feeling to paint or to write. I watch all the silly telly soaps while sitting on the bed, and I binge on the cake in my refrigerator, after every hour:).........Glad, my weight is still the same....:)...Today, I called all my friends and same silly talks.....but felt refreshed. I had long chats on FB with my friends whom I hardly spoke in the last few months. I used the best picture on my laptop and made it my FB profile pic...just to gain attention and compliments....trust me, I am feeling flattered and relaxed. Due to pain, I sleep 3 hours in the afternoon....I am watching videos on youtube around Impasto and charcoal painting.....:)

I pick a book or play games on my ipad. Yeah, I still remember when my husband gifted me an ipad last year, I was cribbing, why you bought it? I felt I do need one - save for the rainy days.

For last fifteen days, my ipad is like my best friend. I spend time downloading books on it and keep reading one book after the another. I play games - my favourite paccccc mannnnn..........lol...

Small things make me feel happy. I guess, God has a reason to make me take rest. Though, I do get bored but still I am enjoying the small, smaller and smallest second of it. Maybe, it is like a rejuvenation time for me. Away from work and my people but closer to myself and my choices in life................:)

Good Night!

8 Reviews for My First Book - 14 Pearls of Inspiration :)

I am counting weeks and days to be back to a normal life. Phew!

My husband got a dark chocolate cake as he remembered the anniversary of my first book - '14 Pearls Of Inspiration'. Yes, my book is now a year old. But the biggest surprise was when he shared the link with me where my readers had left a review for my book. 8 reviews for my book and I really felt on cloud nine. I never bothered to check or know anything about my reviews. As I already wrote once on my blog, I wrote my book for a reason and it was a personal reason. I never waited for any good or bad comments. It never made a difference to me. Now, when I am in pain and too much pain, these reviews give me a reason to smile:). I am thankful to my readers who left a review, my friends who grabbed a copy of my book to read it, and my husband for the cake. 

http://books.google.co.in/books?id=wPteLwEACAAJ&dq=14+pearls+of+inspiration&sitesec=reviews

You can click the link to read or leave a review for my book.

:)

Happy Father's Day...

My father is the best man in my life. He taught me to live life to the fullest. My father taught me the finest art of life - 'believe in yourself, you are no less than a man'. 

I am proud to be a daughter of a man who always stood with his daughters and changed the perception of his family that a boy is a better choice over a girl. My dad was very happy when I was born and it was a changing phase for his family.

I dedicate these two poems to my father.

http://happy-fathersday.com/fathers-day-poems-from-daughter-to-dad.html

Happy Fathers Day....

The Burning Soul Talks To Me....

I want my readers to click the below link and read one of my best poem till date. This poem is a dedication to every Indian woman who is sold in the name of marriage and is set on fire, if she could not  bring Dowry. The story that a woman could not tell but her burning soul talks to me.....latest write-up in FG.

http://fridaygurgaon.com/news/3493-The-Burning-Soul.html

Stop the act of dowry. In the name of lavish marriages, social customs and religious rituals, we are just promoting a different form of dowry. If two people want to spend heir lives together then they do not need a lavish marriage, irrestible buffet, exchange of gifts, social customs et al, they just need wishes of people and love for each other. I know how hard it was for my parents to fund my marriage. Though, I contributed my all savings but still I remember the worries of my father. I used to hide outside my parent's room to listen to their conversation as most of the things were not told to me. Maybe, my parents felt I might run away ....:) rather than getting married. But still we all managed but what about many other families who struggle to get their daughters married.

Think once before you get into all this as you never know God might make you a proud father of a daughter in future. Your wife or daughter-in-law is also someone's daughter.

Click to read and feel the pain of the burning soul.....

What I Feel To Eat?

I really feel to eat jalebi with rabri...

I am just happy. Out of all confusions and inhibitions. Back on track..Finally!

I fell down for a reason. I saw my results, was depressed but then there was a voice calling me - accept it and this is a road to tell you to be happy always....

For the first time in so many years, I did not feel to be bothered about social events, people, boring weddings and my people.....God made me to fall to realise a fact - I was doing wrong to myself. So, from now...this is a place to have fun, talks and just happiness. A big good bye to sad moments of my life......

A fresh start....whatever time God has given from now, will not be wasted for any wrong reason.

Sitting for long makes me feel hungry all the time. I want to shop blue denims and a white shirt that too now! What all I am not able to do, I want to do all that. Lol...I am being a child now. 

I just finished reading - Don't sweat the small stuff. I started another book -sun signs by Linda Goodman. The first chapter I read was about Virgo Woman..simply bang on!

It was like reading myself in her words and description about Virgo Woman. It is a must read for every one who wants to understand different sun signs. I am sharing a piece of  information for my Virgo readers. Scroll the link to read around Virgo man, Virgo woman, Virgo child et al.

http://mizian.com.ne.kr/englishwiz/library/names/zodiac/virgo.htm

No matter what at the end of the day, I still want to have jalebi with rabri..:)....,my blog is looking like a romantic blog where one can come and read sex stories....lollll...OmG...looks are deceptive, isn't it....?

Falling Emotiions (Autumn) - My First Impasto Knife Painting

Time is a healing factor. Also, time is a learning factor. It is almost a week and my pain levels are little under control. Though, I do not feel the same way as it was till last Tuesday (:. But I guess God is there to take care of my life for me ;). I spoke to my art teacher and as a process of selection, I was assigned the task to study and make a sample painting. You can view the painting at this link - http://archanaartgallery.blogspot.in/2013/06/impasto-knife-painting-falling-emotions.html

I chose Impasto Art Form with Palette Knife using Acrylic Paints (Link - to know more about Impasto - http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Impasto). The best of the Impasto paintings are the ones painted by Leonid Afremov. It was the first painting I saw in 2011 at my teacher's residence in Hyderabad. It was one of the favourite of my husband and a friend. His painting - When Dream Comes True is a true reflection of wonderful colours. Last one week, I read about Impasto Art Form and watched many videos. I took the concept using Acrylic Paints. My teacher had loved my work and I am selected :). 

Impasto looks beautiful when you see it from a distance.

I have named my painting as 'Falling Emotions'. Impasto is a spread of colours and I used knife to paint the trees with leaves representing emotions. Autumn represents falling of leaves as one can see around the trees. Impasto mainly highlights the knife strokes in an unsmooth manner as one can see in this painting. As a challenge, I chose butter knife rather than a palette knife to experiment a different texture. The two trees are reflection of friendship that is bonded by true human emotions. I used all the vibrant colours to give this painting a life. Emotions are well highlighted with the brightness of different colours. I am quite happy with this form of art and I have long way to make many more. Maybe, someday I might reproduce 'When Dreams Come True' or some other masterpiece of Leonid Afremov. I guess art represents our inner voice only!

New Look of 'So You Think You Are Living'......

I am sharing the link to one of my favourite song and hope my readers will like it. Maula sung by Ali Azmat.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cCTnVuRHSZw

I am liking the new look of my blog. It is good to see bright colours as they give us energy and positivity. Sitting on the bed for long is boring but colours make me feel good. I am making a painting and will blog it in a while.

Feel the colour red and just feel the song. Attraction in any relationship is very important to carry it forward just like respect, trust and love.

:)

A New Interface...

From complete bed rest to 80% bed rest, I was reading about different blogger interfaces. I made it a private blog for an hour to give my blog a new look. I have lot more changes to be implemented in the coming few days. I need time to read and use the appropriate features.

I am also changing the interface of my Arthritis Blog so it will be inactive for a while.

I chose this interface as 'red' always attract me. It is a color of love, strength and success. It is a colour of energy. I am too late to share last month's stats. We had almost 831 hits.

Due to technical problems, I am not able to share the image file.

:)

Latest poem in FG...

Latest write up in FG - http://www.fridaygurgaon.com/news/3472-Those-Were-The-Days.html.

On Complete Bed Rest(:

I just slipped from treadmill as my blood pressure dropped. I just could not move . I did not realise what happened until I was taken to the hospital and the diagnosis showed  the need of complete bed rest. No movement for some days. It is my daughter's birthday and it feels bad as I planned to make cup brownie and kheer for the day. I have hurt my back at the same point where it got injured in 2006 in an accident while travelling to office.

I have so much pain that I cannot get up or move so I will pray for my daughter until I meet her on 5th July in Hyderabad, if I recover quickly.

Complete bed rest, no movement other using a rest room is such a tough job. It is late at night and I thought to read a book.

It is hard to rest for a person like me. I miss my baby doll today. (:...I just cancelled my chocolate making classes for this weekend. My all plans are postponed until I can sit and get better.....

A Gift for my daughter!

My daughter's birthday is coming. While painting this canvas, I was constantly thinking about Sphoorti and all the children at Sphoorti. I name this painting as 'Sanjana'.

Unconditional Love - latest post in FG.

My friend told me that I am unhappy as things did not happened the way I wanted, and it really hurts when that was the last time you conversed with a friend. At times, life does not give a chance to tell that my friendship for my friend was unconditional. Any relationship is beautiful when it is away and free from terms and conditions. I never wanted anything from my friend. It was more hurtful when after doing so much and being truthful, you are judged as if you had some personal interests in being friends with him or her.

Let us start this month on a note to live relations and friendship without any terms and conditions. Let the people in our life feel their true worth, and let us live the friendship beautifully.

Yesterday's post in FG is a poem about unconditional love. My readers can read me my poem at the link below:

http://www.fridaygurgaon.com/news/3426-His-Unconditional-Love.html

Good night:)